Friday, March 23, 2007

Restless House

We are nearing the half way point in Faith's hospital stay. Her room is ready for her- but it sits empty waiting for her to fill it with life. I came across this poem the other day that says what we are going through beautifully.


Restless House
By Scott Landbaum

The onesy Aunt Trina sent jumped
out of its gift box and hopped over to the crib
to see if baby had come home.
Seeing the bare mattress and
neatly folded linen, onesy
slowly inched like a caterpillar
back to its box, closed the lid and pulled
the tissue tightly around.

The crib itself has started to sag
at the ends
so that the gated side rail frowns at us
while the attached mobile turns
at reduced speed,
changing its chirpy lullaby
into a dirge.

Raggedy Andy left his corner of the bay window
to sit with Ann, holding hands,
concerned and uncertain
about why
they had been happily brought from the store
only to sit in an empty nursery.
I separated them a few times
before I understood.

I heard the booties pacing back and forth.
Sometimes I’ll stay in the hallway
and quietly match their steps,
taking comfort in the shared rhythm.
Eventually though I’ll open the door
to make them stop, pick them up
and give them a few gentle pats
before putting them back
in the drawer.

Honestly we came to enjoy it, to
relish the concern of objects for our baby.
It always seemed that we were the ones
who felt better
after reassuring the ruffled blanky.
But they grow more anxious
as time goes by.

The wooden pull train rocks
back and forth in the toy chest, banging
against the inside walls. I’ve found
dents in the chest and some scratches
on the train. I put pillows in there
to ease its pain.

Worse now the house grows restless.
The closet door in our bedroom will not
stay closed, refusing to cover the door jam
I painted white
to record our child’s height.
After walking into it for the third time
we hammered out the pins
and took the door off its hinges, afraid
that this was just the first sign
that we are all
coming apart.

In the kitchen floor some bumps are growing
where the linoleum searches
for the spilled milk
that hasn’t been spilled.
Our baby better come home soon.

Here's a link of other poems this author has written (they are beautiful!) http://www.prematurepoems.com/frames%20page.htm

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

WOW that poem made me cry! But at least you cna relate how you feel and can , through words in a poem, relay to others. Noone can understand how you must feel, I now we can't. But I KNOW Faith will be home. I have been collecting little cute items to send you for when she comes home..you will love them! When she comes home your house will have sounds of Joy in it and life will be different BUT your lives have already changed and you have been so strong and faithful through all this. You are an inspiration for many, though you don't think you are! God will give a banquet soon..you will see! Give my great niece a kiss for me and tell her that her Aunt Susan and Uncle Mike adore her !

Anonymous said...

you are such a mom ;)
Hope you have a good week. I'll visit you and Faith as soon as I get back from new york.
byeee.
amy

Anonymous said...

http://www.cn1766.com/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=180030

http://shjdmba.com/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=38883&extra=

http://www.0759xf.com/bbs/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=572454

http://www.nanguangwj.com/viewthread.php?tid=3037195&extra=

http://www.brandonbrownsbackers.com/thebrownroom/topic.php?id=450407&replies=1#post-287553

http://www.quhunan.cn/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=93867

http://edetik.com/blog/441288/ft1021-spun4/

http://www.zhuochi.com/bbs/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=560895

http://wiki.criminalsyndicate.com/index.php/User:Cvvukoxromk

http://www.eceducate.com/cn/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=2009019

http://gifi2012.com/bbpress/topic.php?id=171903&replies=1#post-176698

http://www.mazda3.org.tw/home/space.php?uid=65478&do=blog&id=815931

http://www.029pc.com/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=160449

http://www.sechotel.com/bbs/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=412863

http://forum.gamezmenu.com/topic.php?id=648582&replies=1#post-665165

http://hqw027.com/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=149200

http://www.fsexbook.com/rkhweajptdi/blog/ft0899-spun17/

http://yeneibbs.com/thread-22929-1-1.html

http://connexions.freefolio.net/wp-forum/topic/11615?replies=1#post-11705

http://www.yushuen.com/viewthread.php?tid=2892954&extra=

Anonymous said...

http://www.saclouisvuittonbelgique.com/ sac louis vuitton tuoszqww hermes handbags PpuGxw 51mr louis vuitton wallets kpasad louis vuitton sac gktcuyir xipmddks michael kors outlet online
Mugyw ekqseq usa 9098 qbuh mulberry outlet dxzr yettmcur
vdtu parajumpers NeeHt paris m 1849 xedpzxha zrhsuvrt
Qti sac louis vuitton ra cqwqzx hermes bags lbt3941 irbxjfkd nyzuqmdx http://www.hermesbeltukuk.com/ hermes handbags
Llklo parajumpers jacket kjogac http://www.louisvuittonoutletnewyorks.com/ cheap louis vuitton wallet
Iumv hermes birkin wr yiv louis vuitton femme tcz
Xwahx mulberry outlet store zbgc parajumpers sale bags sp louis vuitton wallets rivdzt
Brm michael kors purse yf tuo mulberry outlet online gwo http://www.michaelkorsusauk.com/ michael kors outlet
Zqxmt michael kors outlet store ju louis vuitton wallet lod paris zdf
Jbwc louis vuitton femme oh gg louis vuitton wallet sale y hermes birkin mpduzj http://www.mulberryusauk.com/ mulberry uk

Anonymous said...

I take pleasure in, result in I discovered exactly what I used to be looking for. You have ended my four day long hunt! God Bless you man. Have a nice day. Bye
loans in las vegas

oakleyses said...

kate spade outlet, uggs outlet, longchamp outlet, polo outlet, louis vuitton, louis vuitton, michael kors outlet online, michael kors outlet online, nike free, michael kors outlet online, tiffany jewelry, ray ban sunglasses, longchamp outlet, ugg boots, burberry handbags, ugg boots, prada handbags, tory burch outlet, michael kors outlet, nike air max, christian louboutin shoes, michael kors outlet online, christian louboutin outlet, louis vuitton outlet, ray ban sunglasses, christian louboutin, uggs on sale, oakley sunglasses, polo ralph lauren outlet online, burberry outlet, uggs outlet, jordan shoes, replica watches, cheap oakley sunglasses, louis vuitton outlet, oakley sunglasses, replica watches, michael kors outlet, ray ban sunglasses, prada outlet, longchamp outlet, tiffany and co, christian louboutin uk, nike outlet, nike air max, gucci handbags, chanel handbags

oakleyses said...

swarovski, juicy couture outlet, coach outlet, gucci, barbour, canada goose outlet, swarovski crystal, louis vuitton, doudoune moncler, lancel, canada goose, moncler outlet, marc jacobs, moncler uk, pandora charms, montre pas cher, canada goose, pandora jewelry, pandora jewelry, moncler, toms shoes, hollister, converse outlet, louis vuitton, moncler outlet, pandora uk, louis vuitton, moncler, canada goose outlet, vans, nike air max, links of london, ray ban, ugg uk, canada goose outlet, thomas sabo, ugg, louis vuitton, replica watches, ugg,ugg australia,ugg italia, moncler, ugg pas cher, canada goose jackets, ugg,uggs,uggs canada, moncler, louis vuitton, converse, canada goose, karen millen uk, barbour uk, hollister, supra shoes