Last week I had written a post I had intended to publish titled, "What we are looking forward to most..." It was not hard to come up with a very long list of what this surgery would mean to our family...and most importantly to Faith.
The number was being able to hear her laugh.
Three years ago we met a family who had a daughter who had been trached. I'll never forget when the mother told me that hearing her daughter laugh after decannulation was her number #1.
"That day will come for you Jen," she encouraged "someday you will hear Faith laugh and it will be the sweetest sound you have ever heard."
Today, we learned that that day will not be Monday, August 2nd.
Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. -Matthew 7:7-8
We have asked, sought, and knocked so hard our fists are sore.
And yes, we received.
We received the answer we did not want to hear.
But perhaps the answer isn't "no" just "not now."
Someday there will be a now...but it doesn't take away from the hurt that after getting so close...being able to hear our daughter's laughter remains a "someday..."
Jen & CO